May 09, 2003
May 9th 2003

Howday ho' there.

Yesterday I tried to create a link with all the fan listings that I had joined, I spent a good 2 hours doing this but I then got an email from this girl advising that I should direct link and I should save the images on to my own server...so much for that then. but guess what never fear as Squizzle is here. Also, I'm getting a lovely new layout hopefully on Monday! woo hoo!

OMG! I had such an episode on Saturday! I woke up on Saturday with no plans and I was feeling sooooo depressed that day, I don't understand it, may be I was feeling really hormonal or something but I seriously doubt it as I never ever ever feel like that. Anyway, all day Saturday I sat around the flat really sorry for myself and I couldn't stop crying, I just felt so shit about my self, the more I thought about it the more depressed I became...sad really. When it comes down to it I have nothing to be depress about...

So in the evening I thought fuck this, this is absolute BULLSHIT! I phoned a few mate and I went out to this club called Vegas (I was there for their new year party). It's really wacky, think of people dress up as if they lived in the 50's, 60's and my personal favorite the 70's. There was a fashion show before it which was cool, the close where from this big second hand retro store called Armstrong’s, man I have su9ch fan in that store!

So that was a good night.

I can't believe how depressed I was on Saturday though, it’s really freaked me out...I have nothing to be upset about really. Although it might have some thing to do with what Ben said to me on Thursday night...we went out for dinner, but things got really deep and personal and I don't think it sunk in until about Friday night/Saturday morning (we also go majorly pissed!, may be I just found the whole thing over whelming...I dunno, I'm over it now though.

I've gotten back in to reading by the way, nothing heavy just light hearted Chick Lit, I'm currently into Lisa Jewell at the moment, her book Ralph's Party is fantastic, read the review (you might see a review by me AKA Superfly Sister!) also I'm currently reading her other book Thirty-Nothing which is just as good.

I'm not going through any major musical phases at the moment... but guess what I watched last night Sid & Nancy, I hate punk music, but I can still understand what it's about, I understand that it’s about rebellion against society, politics etc the death of Disco etc etc. Bloody good film though.

yesterday - foreverdiv>