May 23, 2003
May 23rd 2003

So how do ya like my new layout? Pretty special huh? And it’s all thanks you young Squizzle! I think it’s tres lovely, I’ve kept the old Janet layout on the tag board, cuz I still like it really. I’ve still to get the Fanlistings thingy up….. I finally managed to make Dixon’s take in my Mini Disc player and fix it. Turns out I have a 5 year cover plan agreement (thought I had 2, YIPPIE!), so they have to fix it and U swear it was accidental water damage caused by the rain! So hopefully the damage is soooooo bad that they will right it off and I’ll get a lovely new one! Woo hoo! However, that seems extremely unlikely, but here’s hoping… but until then I’ll just use Ben’s he such a sweetie, he insisted I borrow his until I get mine back, he doesn’t use his anyway. So I picked that up as I left his house this morning. I saw him last night, we were meant to see the Matrix Reloaded but he didn’t think it would be fair for me to go to a late movie knowing I had work the next day and he didn’t…(I told ya he’s an absolute honey). But saying that, we ended up in bed eating Pizza and watching Gladiator (I don’t care what anyone says I happen to find Russell Crow a fab actor) and getting stoned…lol! I didn’t get any sleep any way, so we should of gone to the cinema, but he said he wanted to take me on Saturday and take me out for dinner, my choice as well. I can’t believe we’ve been going out for a year (on 25th May). I feel like I’ve known Ben for all my life, it freaks me out in some ways. I’ve never been in a serious relationship. I feel like Ben knows be better than anyone in the world and sometimes I wonder what the hell is he doing with a nut like me? I honestly think that sometimes, sometime I think I don’t deserve to have Ben in my life and I honestly feel lucky to know someone like him. He’s an awesome guy. Oh guess what! You know that guy that I used to work for, they guy that was really in to me, oh, hang on click here to read the story cuz I can’t be arsed to explain it all. We he phoned me at work, but a work colleague answered the phone and told me some guy called Lesley was on the phone for me and he had asked if I still worked where I do. I actually don’t know any guys called Lesley but I answered it anyway… when I found out who it was I was shakin’ and I hung up! OMG!!! So for the past two days I’ve been walking around looking out for his car, not answering the phone and stuff. That man makes me nervous! You know that feeling where you know you have something else to say but you can’t remember what exactly? Well, I have that feeling right now….

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