2002-07-15
Disowning parents now....

Jesus what a weekend!

Where should I start. Thursday, I went round to my parents house to seem my little brother because he had an operation. The evening was fine, I hadn't seen my family for about 2 months because they pissed me off and I wanted to get some peace and quite and get my life back on track. So like I said it all went really well on Thursday.

Mum invited me over the next day, and I thought I’ll go round because the previous night was alright... so I did.

Its a very well documented fact that I do not get along with my father. He ignores me and is very critical of me. He only want to pick out the bad things happening in my life, namely the situation going on with the mobile company. How I'm not at university. How I never call and especially how I never called him on fathers day!

I mean come on! he wants me to phone him on Fathers day he must be bloody joking right? well, apparently not. I'm not gonna say happy fathers day to a man that hasn't exactly been a father to me am I? No.

The he says that I'm selfish, well I've got to be who the hell looks after me and I have things in my life that I need to get on with.

Both mum and Dad always bring up the past! grr. I'm trying to get on with things and they always try to make me feel guilty for the things that I did in the past, the always place the blame on me, I never asked them to physically attack me! I never asked them to insult, critises and make me feel worthless! No I didn't.

So it all got so out of hand. I told my dad there’s no one in this world I hate more than him. I know its a cruel thing to say, but when you feel that way its the truth... and I'm not sorry. Maybe its about freaking time that he really knew how I feel towards him.

grr....!

Met up with a friend from Sweden, her name is Anna. We spent the whole of Saturday in town, in the beautiful weather! it was cool! Anna is a fan of Darren Hayes by the way. I met her on the DHBBS message board after I noticed that she said that she was coming over to Edinburgh. So Saturday was the first time that I met her! And she's lovely!

Caught with Kati on Sunday night. Judgmental as ever!

Did sweet FA yesterday! recorded some albums onto blank mini discs and ate all day.

Today, Monday. Work.

THE DAY BEN COMES BACK!!!! YEAAAAHHHHH!!!!

Got a message from him just before lunch time. I asked him what time he got in. About 5 minutes ago. So I! Me! must of been the first person that he thought of!

I think we're gonna catch up tonight.

Can't wait. I missed him like crazy!

yesterday - foreverdiv>